Coffee and opera and the beats and Bono and Depeche Mode money may be gone and both love for life and love for country are dwindling
Kerouac was a Roman Catholic Republican mama's boy jerk-off I prefer Ginsberg or maybe Burroughs but I would not fuck underage youths or shoot my wife or shoot up junk.
iPod in hand, music endless going round, revolving like discs in a jukebox technology is fun, if it works properly music non-stop, and emails sent computer world in motion message board in cyberspace fascism in inner space and outer space censorship on the arts in an artist's space censorship on art in high places and fascist states
funky cold medina, I say
jazz and techno, rock 'n' roll house rhythms and tribal drums industrial kling-kling on sampled steal pipes punk-like snarls, and operatic soundscapes mixed drinks and cabaret performers with a Germanic stance striking a pose and dancing the tango the songs of caberats in Paris in the 60s and of Weimar Berlin and American standards and musical theatre pieces a sight for wide eyes a sound for open ears a sensation to speak or write about as it fuses into the eardrum
I'm going mad, I'm insane I'm going down I hear the sound of the drum the empty silence drenched with the sound of loneliness and despair I enjoy the silence I suffer in silence and inside, I'm sighing crying, and dying and I need a drink or something to eat
I wander around aimlessly and I see no one I miss my cash less and less and yet I need it more and more and "all the weights that keeps me down seem heavier than before"
I want to dance and move my feet to the beat but I fell boung chained to a life of solitude
I'm screaming inside shouting for freedom begging and crying out for serenity crying aloud for someone to hear but they hear nothing but they hear nothing but my silence.
electronic joy electronic vibration electric sex switch me on turn me up goldfrapp kraftwerk sweet joy sweet lust fuzz box love box electric pussy twirling dildo buzzing plastic spastic spasm buzzing butt play buzzing butt plug young and dumb full of cum young one peep show ab fab coupling love me spank me funk me fuck me suck me sweet charity sweet surrender constant craving sweet ejaculate sweet ejactualtion black celebration ultra violator sweet release little death petit mort satisfaction guaranteed after math after glow after show after hours good fuck paid in full
Quick! Change the music to something happy something loud and proud and funky! NOW!
No more dirges of fascistic sorrow No moretales of war and conservative woe No more lies told to us by family friends, politicians and strangers NO MORE!!
I'd like...a thumpin' good beat some soulful diva some kick-ass DJ some noise to drown out the volume of sound comin' outta the TV set some robot noise some industrial strength beats some old school Donna Summer or Gloria Gaynor some synthpop like Soft Cell or Bronski Beat some New Order and some Pet Shop Boys some tribal trancy dancy freedom-inducing techy jazzy funky joyous joyful and aggressive low-key stompin'-hard beat
While elephants roam the earth Our noise drowns out their outdated noise, their annoying, loud voices trumpeting cries of "We will prevail" and "make no mistake" and "Send more troops" and "Bomb them" and "I'm a war president" and "Mistakes were made"
We the tribe of people that join here where the music does not suck to overcome and survive This is the music of our people the music of the HUMAN RACE and the words are saying like the original words to "Le Frak" by Chic
I can't understand why I'm watching Grease when I really want to go out and do shit But once again Mother Nature is on the rag What a bitch she's become quite like my mother in the old days acting cold and blowing a fierce wind farting her fierce frigid sting in my face red and chapped and raw and tired I just can't bring myself to brave the cold night But if I went out I feel so right I feel good and feel so fine But I have no cash since it was stolen by some jerk-off on the third of the month May the Lord Satan or Buddha or Jesus smite those bastards who stole my cash and make me rich so I can move to New York and make better and more fabulous and more freaky and more fine than I am now.
Yeah I does seem a little abusive! Sorry, I was cold and PO'd that day! LOL! But I'm not naturally violent or evil, I was just angry that day. Relax I'm not a mass murderer.
WHO AM I? (THE SHORT VERSION) (for the folks the the Motherboards)
27 years old, I live in Syracuse NY queer, bi, on SSD and SSI, dysthymic, attention-deficit-disordered (according to my shrink) a poet, an art junkie, a theatre fan, I've been banned by PC lesbian hosts of closed-minded poetry reading and haunted open mics during the years of the Iraq war, been called a racist, and a faggot, born March 19 1979 highly intelligent highly inquistive raised in affluence mired in the quicksand of poverty, currently unemployed, fortified by music, film, poetry, and pornography, I haunt the library, love to go to bookstores and record stores and against my better judgement, I go to the mall a liberal, a socalist, a useless democrat and have read Marx thank you blunt, honest urban, urbane witty, clever sometimes not modest I have a lust for life that just won't die I love and hate both of my parents father's a funeral director mother's a teacher I have two sisters (one short of a Checkov play) was angry enough to post a response to the beating of Kevin Aviance and found the Mothersboards (am I accepted into the sisterhood?) I am gender-free polymorhpous perverse free if only in my own mind I am trying to love life and I am here to stay until I die and will be always here on earth to let you have it!
JESUS IS MY HOMEBOY AND HE"S GONNA BUST A CAP IN YO ASS!!!
jesus is gonna come back one day and say "THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT!" and settle the score once and for all and tell the truth about what he thought and did and the last temptations and passions will be justified and the fundamentalists and the "born-agains" and the roman catholics will see him for who he really is: loving compassionate kind communistic democratic socialistic anarchic political radical poetic and very pissed of at what certain people are saying that he said and misquoting him and using his words to start wars and commit gross acts of indecency and bigotry in his name and he only said a lot of good things but he told us to love one another and love God so no one should be using his words for hatred against anyone yeah jesus appeared to me in a dream and he said "I might say to bring a sword to battle the evil of the world AB, I don't think you should as you say 'bust a cap in their ass' but words bring peace and comfort" words of love compassion and peace are our weapons of choice the word is the sword the words may be hard to hear though he is pissed off and he told me tosay that he'll be back one day to set us all straight and he'll be back to let us have it!