enough of that... for now lol well well its wedday I went tto do a medical study today and got paid for it, it was ok.. as uausal I was the only ts there, but its ok. One of the Drs referred to me as he but I immediatly corrected him. He apologized too. But thats all I have to make dinner. and prepare mysaelf and my closet for the next 3 days of parties!! thursday fri and saturday!!

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I have a love hate thing with Valetines day, see its nice if you are with someone , if not it sucks. lol I am trying to keep myself in a good mood. My friend Katherine is coming out with me tommorow nite. We have been friends for years, lol since college... yes I went to college.. anyhoo we are going to Steelows party, so we'll see

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in my stomach. I keep thinking about my ex. I still keep in contact with him. and I misss him to be honest. But lately he has been on my mind and in my dreams. When I think about him, I get this weird butterfly feeling in my stomach. Sometimes I would swear there is a voice that yells from the back of my head saying you are gonna be alone forever!! hey you you are gonna be alone forever. I honestly dont believe it. but it does work at you.. and dig at you, and its hard.
anyhoo tonite is the transgender meetingat the center, which I am going to, I gotta get there early cause I wanna get a good spot in the meeting, all who know me know I am not one to sit quietly (especially when we were at city hall)ok for those who dont know, I hate to be left out of insides jokes, so I am not gonna leave anyone out. One time I went to city hall to show my feelings and to testify for trans rights. wel the one guy on the panel rejected the trans rights bill and I stodd up and lost it, yelling at him and all I was telling him excuse me have you ever been told you cant use the bathroom you arent the correct gender, and yelling various words at him lol yes I am a loud mouth. and I will continue to be loud until we get out rights(that now the butch queens seemed to again left us out..)

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Dear Princess RH

Ah, Honey, we love yah with all our hearts - you can do no wrong on the MotherBoards, it's family.

Take the challenge from Daddy to go beyond the mood you are in, roll away from your soggy tear stained pillow, look around you, and start spilling your dreams. Look deep into the eyes of those that doubt you and describe your issues with them with a hell bent vengence to show your truth to the rest of us.

You are being given a golden opportunity here to share your vision of the life you lead in your own words. Not just to take what others are giving you in grief. Your insight into your friends and aquaintances is peculiar to you, interesting to others, and fun for the multitudes. The urban locations and its inhabitants that you have access to, would curl most mall rat's toes.

We, your adopted family, want the world you see in your dreams to be real for everyone.

Love yah, Princess,

The Merlinator

its funny, in a way cause, everyone around me seems to see the bigger picture,and I dont, not yet, but I will try.. on that note, I am off to figure out what I am wearing to Steelows party!!

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well last nite was, well I got quite twisted, and just was a mess but in a good way I had to much fun, I will have pics by next week. I hope lol then I could put them on my webpage...more to come I will write more but just woke up soo

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Hi B!!
Ok saturday ni9te I went to this Goth party uptown on 121 St. and Lex. I got on the trian with my nhot pink streaked hair as well as a cute but tame outfit... it was cool but I was scared to death.The club was cute the music was awesome and Master Steelow came and did the grinder performance. I had so much fun that nite I even made out with someone. I have decided to start selling jewelry again, and very soon. I also may and I do mean may come out tonite... I have some links I wanna post from the past few times I have gone out but I'm not sure how to link them so I will put them in but you guys have to copy and past the url ok...Oh by the way remember Oscar?? well he came by the Funhouse on friday and apologized, and we decided to remain friends..

http://m.mgcdn.us/tsfetishNYC/JosieandElizabeth.jpg
web page


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I did it lol I did it lol

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finally friday finally time to go out once again. I was up late last nite I made my first hair piece! I sweed a wig to a banana clip its very Fran Dresher but it looks hot maybe I can do the goth porn star look tonite!! lol
! anyhoo off to internet world yea!!I will write something intellegent tomoorow...

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[This message was edited by HelinRhiannon on 02-21-03 at 06:11 PM.]

Hello all yes I went out last night and had a blast!! It was fabu.. my friend Sin aka Faery Delicous came by, and brought me wigs and clothes and so much stuff I was in heaven, shoes as well.
I went out last night and was in bed by 6 am. I looked fabu and there will be pics soon

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well I drank too much last nite.. energy, I will write later

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so its monday I took my entrance exam for Aveda this morning, get the results tommorow. Then I spoke to Velocity today and I am performing this friday at Goddess. so thats all...

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ok well I got my results and I PASSED!! I passed the entrance exam I will be starting school in april!!!and I have a new pic from friday nite at funhouse of me and Faery aka Sin
web pagehttp://www.funhouseparty.com/images/funhouse-pics4/FH-P1010028.jpg

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You made it!!!

(Don't know why, visions of Grease's beauty school have plagued my mind ever since I read your post No worries there - Aveda sure doesn't qualify + you shall never be a beauty school drop-out!)

a few days and I havent felt like writing much. to be honest my health drama I let it get the best of me. I have to start new meds, I am quite nervous. And its quite nerve wraking... so we'll see. So I got into school my parents agreed to help me get some clothes and shoes for school. I went out friday to the Funhouse. It ws fun as usual. I start school april 12. well I gotta go...

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the past few days have been rough, I started some new medications, and they are quite harsh. But its not too bad. its just uncomfortable. I am also starting a new anti-depressant... lol me? happy? lol I doubt it. lol School stuff is going ok, I have 1 of the 2 letters of reccomondation that I need, and I have to send for my high school transcripts. That should be fun. I almost wanna put the form from the school in an obnoxious envelope.. something flashy, and just crazy... lol I went to an all boys high school in westchester!! I dont know I wanna just get this all over with and start school already..

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I started to eat more often. I stayed up last night did the rest of my laudary, and cleaned my apt. I have to send out that damn for for school and get the letter of recomondation.. well I gotta get crackin... I'll write more soon, Dont worry Daddy, the fith is coming...

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but I was looking at my new years pics, and said hey! that make- up looked really good.. so take a look

htweb page tp://www.mastersteelow.com/NYE_Fetish_ball_2002.htm

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I have been trying to look at things differently lately.. being much more appreciative for what it is that I have. I must say its weird for me to say that but.. its true. I have gotten a few things done.. I called my old high school and they are sending the transcripts to the school, now I have to write a letter of intent, for myself then type the letter of reccomondation as well. Tommorow its Back to welfare to recertify. My new meds gave me a rash! all opver my body yuck! so I called my Dr. and got yet 2 more scripts.. it never ends, thats all for now.. I heard Bobby is in town, I wanna go see him at Chez Essada on wed..

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I never did make it out on wednesday nite, the rash I had was cover 90 percent of my body, and I couldn't even pull it off as a "look" lol well finally now almost a week later and I feel better. I didnt go out at all last week til about well yesterday for the RocketBall, where I sold cd's and sat the the Vulgaras table, as well signed new people to the email list... it was fun! Section 8 is coming on wed to inspect my apt, so that mean I will be up for the next 2 days cleaning... onward..

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